Releasing Pressure

So.. I actually wrote this entry yesterday, but ran into some trouble when I was about to publish it.. Anyways, here you go:



"Everything’s happening too fast, yet time stands still.

How can that be?

So many things to do, so many thought racing, fighting for enough time and space.
Yet I sit here and do nothing. Say nothing. It’s as if everything around me is crowding in on me and I can’t breath.
Things that were supposed to happen didn’t, and things that weren’t supposed to happen did. Why?

Listening to Mark Read’s “Wide Open Spaces”. Feel I can relate. I want to find a place, drive somewhere that is wide open; sunset-filled ocean, fields where I can breathe. I want to be able to let it all out, scream and shout, run around in circles, cry and laugh. Yet here I sit completely still feeling everything building up inside and I don’t know what to do about it.

I’m having the time of my life, yet I’m standing outside myself only watching. Not participating. Not at the moment.

Leaving one dear world and life for another. Again. Not enough time to say farewell. Not enough knowledge to say for sure whether or not it is farewell.
I love it. But everything has its price. And right now I’m making a payment.
Happy, yet wiping the tears off my face. It’s good though. Releasing the pressure a bit. Reading about the Greats. What amazing lives and faith. Feeling little and foolish. Knowing something great will happen in my life, our life.

This is my scream. My way of releasing tension. Brazil is going to be good. As always. And I love my Creator. He's got control. Thankfully. Gonna get a tan now. :)
Stay blessed, always!<3"